Weeds

Here it is. Sunday. A lazy day. Yet my mind swirls in a most uncooperative fashion. I know it's full of "junk" because I have been sleeping badly. Sleep has overtaken me this weekend, and I let it. I had to catch up. Yet, the mind keeps working, smothered by vines of thought.

Money problems: I need to find a way to overcome them. They smother me. I need to visualize a 50K check in my future, that will afford me some freedom from the "paycheck to paycheck" existence. A book advance perhaps? On a book that has not yet been written. One that will be essential for everyone to read? Yes, that's the ticket. OHM!

Job interview tomorrow, for the head in my department: Do I have the qualities to do this job successfully? Hell, yes. I am organized. I have a vision. I know what I am doing. I am patient (mostly). I am honest and straightforward. Will this job enrich my life or bog it down with more junk to clog my brain? One thing is for sure, I trust my destiny to myself a hell of a lot more than I do in other people's hands.

My raging garden: I think, one morning I will not be able to get out of my house because the weeds and the plants will have sealed me in. I talked to a landscaper two weeks ago and he said he would get back to me this week. I have heard nothing. Maybe, he is caught in the weeds somewhere.

The health "care system": What an oxymoron if I ever saw one. Doctors are "firing" patients. Hospitals are nearly killing people in their care. Good luck finding a family doctor, nevermind finding one you can trust to care for you properly. They have become drug dispensers for the pharmaceutical companies, and when you walk in their door, the CHA-CHING is deafening. I can't rely on google for my diagnosis... I will stick to alternative medecine, because there is wisdom there, and the practitioners actually take the time to get to know you, and understand your issues.

I see a pattern. Where did I put my machete? I have some cutting down to do! :)