Do you ever get those dreams that make you wake up with tears in your eyes? I had one this morning. I dreamt that I was vacationing with friends of mine, friends I have known for decades, friends with whom I have all but lost touch. Not for lack of trying on my part.
We were at an airport about to go back home, when I told them how I felt about this distance that is ever-growing between us. They listened and were sympathetic, promising to keep in touch. Our flight was called and we gathered our things to cue up at the gate. As I was following them, I noticed they left some sunglasses behind - three pairs- and when I turned back from getting them, they had all disappeared.
They didn't even wait for me.
The last thought I had was, "It's okay. We're on the same flight."
I guess the symbolic and not so symbolic message of the dream is very clear. This feeling of abandonment the dream engendered is a familiar one, one I have dreamt about and have felt on several occasions; and as I slowly woke up, going through my morning routines, I realized it's time to let go.
No matter how much I try to keep in touch with people who have moved on in their lives, leaving me in their past, it's time to just collect myself and move on with mine. Trying to hold on to the precious memories of a past friendship, memories left behind like sunglasses at an airport diner, is sweet but futile.
Time to gather up myself, and cue up at the gate of new possibilities. And who knows, one day, we might find ourselves on the same flight.
2 comments:
hi genie, i hardly ever see you, my dear...this is such a sad post but i do hope you see the wisdom within the message? everything is temporary including us so i hope you let go of those who no longer serve your soul needs and look forward to the newness of now. and if not then i hope you find peace in being just exactly who you are...a kind and sweet woman who has known pain and joy. and will hopefully have more of the latter in the years to come. xxx
Hi Linda! I have missed you so! I know I have been AWOL in the blogoshpere mostly because the real world has kept me busy. But I have not forgotten my friends here. I think of you often! I promise I will come visit. (I keep saying that don't I?)
Thank you so much for your sweet comment. It was a sad dream, but I won't dwell on sadness. Onward and sometimes literally upward! :)
Hugs!
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